Between form 3 and form 4 (2010 and 2011), I changed.
Yes I also did a couple of things wrong, I know. But I changed my life so dramatically between November 2010 and April 2011 that I bet you I wouldn’t be here today if I hadn’t made those changes. Most who knew me must have noticed the change. It was loud, I hope.
The change was simple: Being close to God and praying a lot, writing down a plan for my life and having time alone to walk and just be. And it brought about all the difference.
I was in bed today morning. Restless. Tired. Bored. And with no plan. Sadly, this is almost becoming a routine. And then in a flash I was carried back to November 2010. To a time I could pass for a failure. I actually did. It was a time I was nothing.
Then I remembered the lonely walks in the middle of the night and the prayer I made. The determination each morning. To be. To live and to understand. To shine, to build, to know and to be remembered.
I have realised today what it means to take a chance. And I have learnt it from my own life.
Do you have these moments when you start remembering all the things you used to do? The moments you weren’t pulled down by discouragements? The days you were ready for anything and everything. Those days when motivation was soaked in your blood and it drenched in your sweat. So much you swam in happiness knowing everything would be okay, and even if not, that above was a Being far greater than greatness itself who’d be there for you. Do you remember those days?
What happened? What changed?
“What happened to me? Why am I tired, bored, restless and with plan?”
We’ve created for ourselves an illusion that we are living. That we are moving forward. The excuse that we are better today than we were yesterday. That we’ve done great things. We call ourselves successful because of past accomplishments. That should never be the case!
What we did yesterday is done. It shouldn’t hold us back from more. Neither should it be the greatest highlight of our lives. Rather it should be our stepping stone to far greater exploits. Bigger accomplishments.
I said it before the motto each day should be “I am busy countering yesterday’s successes”.
So if you’ve been worried, tired, bored… wake up. Get up. Shake away all the negativity. Put away the thoughts that put you down. Stand up and work hard.
Remember the times you were happy, relentless and full of resolve. Remember the things you’ve fought for and the moments you thought you were nothing and rise up once more. Pray. Spend time alone. Fight laziness. Write a plan. Live.
Don’t be like a leaf in a vast ocean with no control over where the winds take you.
Cloud Atlas ending remember?
Life may tell you, “No matter what you do, it will never amount to anything more than a single drop in a limitless ocean.”
Each morning my answer will be (and so should yours), “What is an ocean but a multitude of drops?”